Sunday, April 19, 2009
When I came back here (to besprent), I vowed to keep it light. But. The past couple of weeks have pushed me into a kind of searching mode that I wasn't really expecting. Maybe it is because we are smack in the middle of the 2 year commitment we made when we moved to the 'nati. Or maybe it is other things.
Here I am. And here I wish I wanted to be. I've made so little effort to make a life in this town. And now it has caught up with me. So I will try.
In an effort to appreciate the here and the now, I (I say I because I am trying to appreciate, but Brady and Edward were gracious enough to accompany me) went to one of my favorite places in the city- the Cincinnati Art Museum. And it truly was a healing balm on my ragged outlook.
We skipped the Surrealism show, but I'm pretty sure we will catch it before it leaves town. We vowed to visit more often. E was a champ and the collection never ceases to amaze.
Next week- the butterfly show at the Krohn Conservatory.
And the weekend after that, the annual library book sale.
And then, the trip!!!
But, maybe a big part of the problem was so hard-hittingly stated in the blog of the teaching pastor at the church that we would attend if we would attend church:
It's made me realize that I have spent most of my adult life not committing to systems because I see the flaws in them. That generally doesn't really work for me. I end up alone and frustrated. When it comes to being more disciplined it probably starts with submission. Seems like you can't be a disciple until you submit.
And how those words resonate. So, if you pray, then please add me to your list. Thanks.